I know your pain
I know your name
There seems to be no ending
To your private shame
I don't presume to think I know enough about
The answers to tell you what to do
But I will ask all the questions that everyone is
Scared to ask of you
Put down the knife, my sister
Put down the blade
I swear I stand here with you
I won't watch you carve your name again
I know your face
I know your eyes
Nobody knows the truth
But I can see right through the lies
You dance around everyone with a smile
And long clothing to hide your skin
You feel like damaged goods, but all I see
Is how beautiful you've always been
So put down the knife, my sister
Put down the blade
I swear I'll stand here with you
I won't watch you carve your name again
Put down the weapon, sister
Put down the gun
I've always loved you for what you are
And what you have yet to become
You can't erase yourself from the ones who care
Even if you feel like you were never there
I will always want you. I will always want you.
I will always want you to finish writing your story
So pick up the pen, my sister
Refill the ink
I swear I'll stand here with you
Writing love on your arms as my heart weeps
Release emotions, my sister
Release yourself
Be free and know this world needs you
Your story isn't over yet
Monday, May 16, 2011
Dark Art Persuasion
You need me don't you?
No, not me.
Yes.
No, just anybody.
So much easier perhaps with a willing subject.
Call me a lab rat.
Call me anything.
Just, please, call me.
Most certain I'm stricken by you.
Everything's hazy right now.
I used to tell mom I'd be a good man; now I'm not so sure.
Nobody was flocking to my side.
But you were there for me, weren't you?
You bound my hands and told me you loved me.
And then came the book.
The candle.
The mirror.
The pipe.
All crashing down on the back of my skull.
No tear was shed when my hands were covered red.
I was wondering, darling, must we fight tonight?
I have never learned anything from an argument.
I have never learned anything from being demeaned.
I hope you're gaining something when you strike me.
I'm okay.
I can take it.
I still love you.
I promise I'll never leave.
Dark is the art of your persuasion.
Cold is the heart in your chest.
I once longed to lie on your breast and tell you my story.
Now you raise your voice.
You reach for a sharp object.
I won't ever tell anyone, my dear.
Your secret is safe right here on my arm.
No cause for alarm.
I'm okay.
I can take it.
I still love you.
Just please don't ever leave.
I remember why you said this would happen.
"I'm sorry, I just do and say things I don't mean when I'm upset."
Escalation.
Rationalization.
Damnation.
You gave me no real reason.
Now I am its embodiment.
I walk alone with the torment.
I bear both your scars and mine.
They just show up and hurt all the time.
But I'm okay.
I took it.
I still love you.
But I just had to leave.
No, not me.
Yes.
No, just anybody.
So much easier perhaps with a willing subject.
Call me a lab rat.
Call me anything.
Just, please, call me.
Most certain I'm stricken by you.
Everything's hazy right now.
I used to tell mom I'd be a good man; now I'm not so sure.
Nobody was flocking to my side.
But you were there for me, weren't you?
You bound my hands and told me you loved me.
And then came the book.
The candle.
The mirror.
The pipe.
All crashing down on the back of my skull.
No tear was shed when my hands were covered red.
I was wondering, darling, must we fight tonight?
I have never learned anything from an argument.
I have never learned anything from being demeaned.
I hope you're gaining something when you strike me.
I'm okay.
I can take it.
I still love you.
I promise I'll never leave.
Dark is the art of your persuasion.
Cold is the heart in your chest.
I once longed to lie on your breast and tell you my story.
Now you raise your voice.
You reach for a sharp object.
I won't ever tell anyone, my dear.
Your secret is safe right here on my arm.
No cause for alarm.
I'm okay.
I can take it.
I still love you.
Just please don't ever leave.
I remember why you said this would happen.
"I'm sorry, I just do and say things I don't mean when I'm upset."
Escalation.
Rationalization.
Damnation.
You gave me no real reason.
Now I am its embodiment.
I walk alone with the torment.
I bear both your scars and mine.
They just show up and hurt all the time.
But I'm okay.
I took it.
I still love you.
But I just had to leave.
The Lies Of The Avatars
Good morning, world
Have you yet to mix your controlled substance?
Take a swig and log in to your pretense
So much better than what you see outside
You're a hero here, but for how long?
You gain levels and don't truly feel strong
Nobody told you you're doing this all wrong
But you succumb to the lie
It's so comfortable to say things you don't mean
To be sucked into a screen
To be someone you are not
It's so wonderful to disassociate
I think it's time to reevaluate
'Cause I won't watch you sit and rot
Good evening, world
Have you yet to take a look out of your window?
Take a glimpse and see the sunset as the night goes
But you're feeling so much safer here inside
You can make a friend, but for how long?
Fall in love with strangers and move on
But take away the vice and the love is gone
Yet you succumb to the lie
It's so comfortable to say things you don't mean
To be sucked into a screen
To be someone you are not
It's so wonderful to disassociate
I think it's time to reevaluate
'Cause I won't watch you sit and rot
Can't you see you're stifling your mind?
Don't you know you haven't really done a thing?
Watch your money dissipate with your life
Just for the temporary glory that it brings
You're trapped inside a web of lies
They've got you right where they want you
And when you start to look back on your life
All this time wasted will haunt you
Good morning, world
Nice to see you outside here in the fresh spring air
Doesn't it feel great to see the rising sun?
I know it was so much safer inside
But now you know that your old life was wrong
You're here among us right where you belong
Let's adventure together by the dawn
Broken free of the lie
It's so amazing to be everything you are
To see this galaxy of stars
Using your own eyes
It's so powerful to put our lives into words
To accept our universe
And to know that we're alive
So let's live
Have you yet to mix your controlled substance?
Take a swig and log in to your pretense
So much better than what you see outside
You're a hero here, but for how long?
You gain levels and don't truly feel strong
Nobody told you you're doing this all wrong
But you succumb to the lie
It's so comfortable to say things you don't mean
To be sucked into a screen
To be someone you are not
It's so wonderful to disassociate
I think it's time to reevaluate
'Cause I won't watch you sit and rot
Good evening, world
Have you yet to take a look out of your window?
Take a glimpse and see the sunset as the night goes
But you're feeling so much safer here inside
You can make a friend, but for how long?
Fall in love with strangers and move on
But take away the vice and the love is gone
Yet you succumb to the lie
It's so comfortable to say things you don't mean
To be sucked into a screen
To be someone you are not
It's so wonderful to disassociate
I think it's time to reevaluate
'Cause I won't watch you sit and rot
Can't you see you're stifling your mind?
Don't you know you haven't really done a thing?
Watch your money dissipate with your life
Just for the temporary glory that it brings
You're trapped inside a web of lies
They've got you right where they want you
And when you start to look back on your life
All this time wasted will haunt you
Good morning, world
Nice to see you outside here in the fresh spring air
Doesn't it feel great to see the rising sun?
I know it was so much safer inside
But now you know that your old life was wrong
You're here among us right where you belong
Let's adventure together by the dawn
Broken free of the lie
It's so amazing to be everything you are
To see this galaxy of stars
Using your own eyes
It's so powerful to put our lives into words
To accept our universe
And to know that we're alive
So let's live
... To The Stars
The end is now upon me
And I no longer see you in the light
The journey's at an end here
And I'd kept hoping we would intertwine
I found you once, I lost you twice
I searched for you across the reach of space
I knew that I'd see you again
To tell you of the stars one day
I traveled to the heavens
To follow all your long forgotten trails
I worked and toiled forever
And all I did until the end was fail
Or perhaps I didn't lose at all
Perhaps the journey was always meant to be
These words I have left here for you
For I said I'd tell you of the stars one day
I was ever longing for you
I lost my nerve and led myself astray
Searched endlessly to find you
But my journey to the stars ends today
I chased for you so long now
I'm resigned to letting you run away
And even though I feel broken
I know that one day I will find my way
I will find a way
I will find my way
I will find a way
I will find my way
And I no longer see you in the light
The journey's at an end here
And I'd kept hoping we would intertwine
I found you once, I lost you twice
I searched for you across the reach of space
I knew that I'd see you again
To tell you of the stars one day
I traveled to the heavens
To follow all your long forgotten trails
I worked and toiled forever
And all I did until the end was fail
Or perhaps I didn't lose at all
Perhaps the journey was always meant to be
These words I have left here for you
For I said I'd tell you of the stars one day
I was ever longing for you
I lost my nerve and led myself astray
Searched endlessly to find you
But my journey to the stars ends today
I chased for you so long now
I'm resigned to letting you run away
And even though I feel broken
I know that one day I will find my way
I will find a way
I will find my way
I will find a way
I will find my way
From The Earth...
The gentle newness of a birth
Beholding something that is ours
All products of our mother Earth
And yet we venture to the stars
Tethered forever to the dirt
Gravity keeps us behind bars
You asked me "What is this life worth?
When will you take me to the stars?"
Our love ignited like a flame
And then it diminished with time
Myself I will forever blame
Indicted self of my own crime
You protected yourself from hurt
You set off on adventures far
This story's begat from the Earth
But now it takes me to the stars
To the stars - I search for you, I go
To the stars - I search for you, I go
To the stars
Beholding something that is ours
All products of our mother Earth
And yet we venture to the stars
Tethered forever to the dirt
Gravity keeps us behind bars
You asked me "What is this life worth?
When will you take me to the stars?"
Our love ignited like a flame
And then it diminished with time
Myself I will forever blame
Indicted self of my own crime
You protected yourself from hurt
You set off on adventures far
This story's begat from the Earth
But now it takes me to the stars
To the stars - I search for you, I go
To the stars - I search for you, I go
To the stars
Emancipation
The word warm doesn't do you justice
You're brighter than the sun
The word beauty is uttered lifeless
For it you have overcome
Never did I believe that I'd cross you
A specter of the past long gone
Always thought that I had lost you
But now you're back here in my arms
How can it be? I still don't know you
Did you travel that far across time?
Have you seen the life I've had to go through?
Have you been trying to get into mine?
Well now you made it, you're here and I love you
Your colors shine so bright in my eyes
For so long I have been thinking of you
And now you're here to light up my skies
So please tell me this day has no ending
Please tell me that you're here for me
Unto you my heart I am rending
Oh, this wandering soul you've set free
You're brighter than the sun
The word beauty is uttered lifeless
For it you have overcome
Never did I believe that I'd cross you
A specter of the past long gone
Always thought that I had lost you
But now you're back here in my arms
How can it be? I still don't know you
Did you travel that far across time?
Have you seen the life I've had to go through?
Have you been trying to get into mine?
Well now you made it, you're here and I love you
Your colors shine so bright in my eyes
For so long I have been thinking of you
And now you're here to light up my skies
So please tell me this day has no ending
Please tell me that you're here for me
Unto you my heart I am rending
Oh, this wandering soul you've set free
Use Once And Dispose
The door shuts and the feeling returns
Eyes are open, stinging again
The hour is late and the fan blades spin
Knowledge of these transgressions learned
I am an inconvenience to you
Of this I have always been aware
Yet you blame me when no one is there
When your face turns a black shade of blue
Hold your breath just to see if you faint
In the hopes that I won't let you fall
I won't be there to save you at all
Lover, savior or partner? I ain't
Just a toy that you use when needed
Bled dry when all I have is gone
No perception of right or wrong
Crushed to dust, left for nothing, defeated
So I know that your life is rough
Must be nice to live comfortably
Must be great to have somebody
While I'm begging to just have enough
Remember who you're talking to
On that day that you're feeling down
When you stick my face in the ground
Just remember the life you choose
When you move onto someone new
Just remember I'm still around
Broken, beaten but still unbound
Yeah I guess I'll still wait here for you.
Eyes are open, stinging again
The hour is late and the fan blades spin
Knowledge of these transgressions learned
I am an inconvenience to you
Of this I have always been aware
Yet you blame me when no one is there
When your face turns a black shade of blue
Hold your breath just to see if you faint
In the hopes that I won't let you fall
I won't be there to save you at all
Lover, savior or partner? I ain't
Just a toy that you use when needed
Bled dry when all I have is gone
No perception of right or wrong
Crushed to dust, left for nothing, defeated
So I know that your life is rough
Must be nice to live comfortably
Must be great to have somebody
While I'm begging to just have enough
Remember who you're talking to
On that day that you're feeling down
When you stick my face in the ground
Just remember the life you choose
When you move onto someone new
Just remember I'm still around
Broken, beaten but still unbound
Yeah I guess I'll still wait here for you.
Not Interested
You come at me with a smiling face and a gentle kiss
You hold me in your arms with a temporary bliss
Your naivete never seems to get you far
Perhaps you'd work much better if you were who you are
COME ON - tell me that I am your focus
COME ON - tell me that this is not hopeless
COME ON - you and I both know it's bogus
This is hocus pocus
You're asking me to save you
You're begging me to tame you
You want me to make room in my heart
Sorry - not interested
You're hurting yourself for my attention
And you've forgotten to mention
You've already split yourself apart
Sorry - not interested
You called me up the other day and hung the phone back up
You wrote to me and told me I should keep in touch
How many other people are longing for your love?
How many have to burn before you've had enough?
COME ON - tell me you know what you're doing
COME ON - tell me the caged bird still has wings
COME ON - you and I both know it's nothing
So just give me something
You're asking me to save you
You're begging me to tame you
You want me to make room in my heart
Sorry - not interested
You're hurting yourself for my attention
And you've forgotten to mention
You've already split yourself apart
Sorry - not interested
Like an octopus's tentacles
You reach out and squeeze your victims
But when they fight back for their life
You try to make them feel wrong
But I've got my own set of spectacles
And I know you're the one that did this
You may die believing you were right
But I've known the truth all along
Reverse psychology
Not gonna work on me
The pain you inflicted
Left me uninterested
You try to turn it around
You can't get off the ground
God you're so limited
Sorry, I'm not interested
You hold me in your arms with a temporary bliss
Your naivete never seems to get you far
Perhaps you'd work much better if you were who you are
COME ON - tell me that I am your focus
COME ON - tell me that this is not hopeless
COME ON - you and I both know it's bogus
This is hocus pocus
You're asking me to save you
You're begging me to tame you
You want me to make room in my heart
Sorry - not interested
You're hurting yourself for my attention
And you've forgotten to mention
You've already split yourself apart
Sorry - not interested
You called me up the other day and hung the phone back up
You wrote to me and told me I should keep in touch
How many other people are longing for your love?
How many have to burn before you've had enough?
COME ON - tell me you know what you're doing
COME ON - tell me the caged bird still has wings
COME ON - you and I both know it's nothing
So just give me something
You're asking me to save you
You're begging me to tame you
You want me to make room in my heart
Sorry - not interested
You're hurting yourself for my attention
And you've forgotten to mention
You've already split yourself apart
Sorry - not interested
Like an octopus's tentacles
You reach out and squeeze your victims
But when they fight back for their life
You try to make them feel wrong
But I've got my own set of spectacles
And I know you're the one that did this
You may die believing you were right
But I've known the truth all along
Reverse psychology
Not gonna work on me
The pain you inflicted
Left me uninterested
You try to turn it around
You can't get off the ground
God you're so limited
Sorry, I'm not interested
Back To You
Come now, angel, don't you cry
I'll sing you a lullaby
When you're weak, I will be strong
If I go, it won't be for long
I'll come running back to you
I'll come humbly back to you
I've been yours for all of time
When dark reigned, you made me shine
When I sing, you give me rhyme
I am yours, and you are mine
I come running back to you
I come humbly back to you
When my soul's in need of you
You fill me, make me renewed
So I'll come running back to you
I'll come humbly back to you
You can never disappear
When my eyes close, you're still here
I can feel you in the air
You are always everywhere
So though you left this earth last night
I know I will be alright
Not one single tear I'll cry
I know you are standing by
I come running back to you
I come humbly back to you
When I feel like life's a waste
And I can't fill an empty space
I will remember your face
And earth will be a brighter place
I'll come running back to you
I'll come humbly back to you
Every time I'm in decline
I'm still yours, and you're still mine
Every time I stand up proud
I'll say your name right out loud
I'll keep running back to you
I'm still humble 'cause of you
Your fire always burns in me
I'll love you eternally
I'll sing you a lullaby
When you're weak, I will be strong
If I go, it won't be for long
I'll come running back to you
I'll come humbly back to you
I've been yours for all of time
When dark reigned, you made me shine
When I sing, you give me rhyme
I am yours, and you are mine
I come running back to you
I come humbly back to you
When my soul's in need of you
You fill me, make me renewed
So I'll come running back to you
I'll come humbly back to you
You can never disappear
When my eyes close, you're still here
I can feel you in the air
You are always everywhere
So though you left this earth last night
I know I will be alright
Not one single tear I'll cry
I know you are standing by
I come running back to you
I come humbly back to you
When I feel like life's a waste
And I can't fill an empty space
I will remember your face
And earth will be a brighter place
I'll come running back to you
I'll come humbly back to you
Every time I'm in decline
I'm still yours, and you're still mine
Every time I stand up proud
I'll say your name right out loud
I'll keep running back to you
I'm still humble 'cause of you
Your fire always burns in me
I'll love you eternally
Better Now
Standing by myself, it's no surprise
Crystalline and clear within your eyes
I hold you closer by the dimming lights
And we will stay together here tonight
Like the fire you see in my soul
It's burning bright and out of my control
Ignite the spark inside you, set you free
So I don't miss what's right in front of me
There's never gonna be a better now
We might as well hold onto this somehow
If there's a way to stay
I'll find it here today
Inside your memory
There's never gonna be
A better now
Superficial lines upon your skin
And all your beauty still resides within
I started up a fight I'll never win
The day I gave myself to you again
I'm holding on inside to something gone
I don't know if it's right or if it's wrong
I just know that my heart will not let go
And I think that it's time I let you know that
There's never gonna be a better now
We might as well hold onto this somehow
If there's a way to stay
I'll find it here today
Inside your memory
There's never gonna be
A better now
One of these days you'll walk my way
One of these days you'll want to stay
And one of these days you'll take this broken heart
And mend it up for me
I can see you now
There wasn't supposed to be another time
I'm waiting here for you to walk this line
There's never gonna be a better now
We might as well hold onto this somehow
If there's a way to stay
I'll find it here today
Inside your memory
There's never gonna be
A better now
I'm better now
I'm better now
I'm better now
Crystalline and clear within your eyes
I hold you closer by the dimming lights
And we will stay together here tonight
Like the fire you see in my soul
It's burning bright and out of my control
Ignite the spark inside you, set you free
So I don't miss what's right in front of me
There's never gonna be a better now
We might as well hold onto this somehow
If there's a way to stay
I'll find it here today
Inside your memory
There's never gonna be
A better now
Superficial lines upon your skin
And all your beauty still resides within
I started up a fight I'll never win
The day I gave myself to you again
I'm holding on inside to something gone
I don't know if it's right or if it's wrong
I just know that my heart will not let go
And I think that it's time I let you know that
There's never gonna be a better now
We might as well hold onto this somehow
If there's a way to stay
I'll find it here today
Inside your memory
There's never gonna be
A better now
One of these days you'll walk my way
One of these days you'll want to stay
And one of these days you'll take this broken heart
And mend it up for me
I can see you now
There wasn't supposed to be another time
I'm waiting here for you to walk this line
There's never gonna be a better now
We might as well hold onto this somehow
If there's a way to stay
I'll find it here today
Inside your memory
There's never gonna be
A better now
I'm better now
I'm better now
I'm better now
Lamentation
It would be best if you'd forgotten me
I've naught to offer this old sordid Earth
I never was to find a life of glee
I never was to realize my worth
My soul is all but ready to depart
My body wrecked and slowly come undone
You now must sever memory from your heart
Save space in there should you find anyone
Not I, though. No not I. I'll fade away
I'll drift with blackest eyes into the ground
No eulogistic words or reckoning day
Could stop this ancient horrifying sound
Waiting to pass beyond the grasp of light
My coffin borne six feet through dirt removed
I tried but I could never win the fight
I spoke the truth of things I never proved
I wasted life and have nothing to show
I could not find a solitary love
No prying spades shall bother me below
Thankful that I am no longer above
You did not understand me once at all
That will not be a problem anymore
Gone quietly into the Reaper's call
To find what lies beyond Lethean shores
One day you'll understand what I have earned
I loved and could not find love in return
I lived with passion, fire inside me burned
And nary was a single lesson learned
Please do not cry for me unless you must
My heart was there for all of you entwined
And though I may now be a child of dust
I remain in you till the end of time
I've naught to offer this old sordid Earth
I never was to find a life of glee
I never was to realize my worth
My soul is all but ready to depart
My body wrecked and slowly come undone
You now must sever memory from your heart
Save space in there should you find anyone
Not I, though. No not I. I'll fade away
I'll drift with blackest eyes into the ground
No eulogistic words or reckoning day
Could stop this ancient horrifying sound
Waiting to pass beyond the grasp of light
My coffin borne six feet through dirt removed
I tried but I could never win the fight
I spoke the truth of things I never proved
I wasted life and have nothing to show
I could not find a solitary love
No prying spades shall bother me below
Thankful that I am no longer above
You did not understand me once at all
That will not be a problem anymore
Gone quietly into the Reaper's call
To find what lies beyond Lethean shores
One day you'll understand what I have earned
I loved and could not find love in return
I lived with passion, fire inside me burned
And nary was a single lesson learned
Please do not cry for me unless you must
My heart was there for all of you entwined
And though I may now be a child of dust
I remain in you till the end of time
Subterfuge
Three hundred and sixty degrees
Ninety one more and you could burn the world's knowledge
Two hundred sixty one point four less and you could reach my core
But for now you're just spinning full circle
Over and over
Like a pointless carousel of carnage
Yeah, I guess my soul is tarnished
Don't even try to tell me yours isn't the same.
What do you see when you look at me?
When you look at you?
When you look at them?
Do you stand befuddled and haw and hem
Or do you find the quickest path to conformity?
Look astonished at the world's enormity
Don't worry, you're about to hear a lot more of me
Or you can do what the rest of the world does
Jack back into the Matrix
Live your life in cryostasis
With every breath in me I hate this
Baseless, faceless society
Sucked into tablets and iPad screens
You think you're smart just because you read
But you've forgotten to retain the information
Forgotten to obtain a revelation
Free to choose your slavery
Divination?
No. I'm just erupting like a mountain of truth
Everlasting and pure like a fountain of youth
Yet pressing and invoking like a burden of proof
You cannot deny.
You're living a lie.
But it's okay, so am I.
Ninety one more and you could burn the world's knowledge
Two hundred sixty one point four less and you could reach my core
But for now you're just spinning full circle
Over and over
Like a pointless carousel of carnage
Yeah, I guess my soul is tarnished
Don't even try to tell me yours isn't the same.
What do you see when you look at me?
When you look at you?
When you look at them?
Do you stand befuddled and haw and hem
Or do you find the quickest path to conformity?
Look astonished at the world's enormity
Don't worry, you're about to hear a lot more of me
Or you can do what the rest of the world does
Jack back into the Matrix
Live your life in cryostasis
With every breath in me I hate this
Baseless, faceless society
Sucked into tablets and iPad screens
You think you're smart just because you read
But you've forgotten to retain the information
Forgotten to obtain a revelation
Free to choose your slavery
Divination?
No. I'm just erupting like a mountain of truth
Everlasting and pure like a fountain of youth
Yet pressing and invoking like a burden of proof
You cannot deny.
You're living a lie.
But it's okay, so am I.
Days
She speaks to me in riddles every single morning
It helps her think that she is "staying on her toes"
She wears her makeup thick upon her face
It helps her cover all her woes
She never cared too much 'bout anything
It helps her make it through her day
She picks herself up later every night
When all the facades fade away
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, pain
Thursday, Friday, Saturday, rain
Sunday, time to find herself again
If she can
She cries herself to sleep after every conversation
It helps the guilt coerce itself to memory
She leaves the world behind at every inconvenience
It helps the past ride itself out to misery
She still remembers when I kissed her goodnight
It doesn't help, but it doesn't hurt
She can recall professing love by moonlight
And she's tried to stop, but she still knows what it's worth
Through Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, pain
And Thursdays all through Saturdays, rain
On Sunday, there is time to find herself again
She knows she can find herself again
She gets so many things she wants
She covers herself with nothing that she needs
She lies to herself and all of the world
But she still knows the truth, she still keeps her dream
One day when it's over, one day when it's past
And all of these things have fallen away
She'll recover the meaning, she'll be there at last
And I never left sight of her beautiful face
The cruelest pain is I can't set her free
The saddest thing is I can't make her see
The worst feeling is I must let her be
For the most important thing to me is she
It helps her think that she is "staying on her toes"
She wears her makeup thick upon her face
It helps her cover all her woes
She never cared too much 'bout anything
It helps her make it through her day
She picks herself up later every night
When all the facades fade away
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, pain
Thursday, Friday, Saturday, rain
Sunday, time to find herself again
If she can
She cries herself to sleep after every conversation
It helps the guilt coerce itself to memory
She leaves the world behind at every inconvenience
It helps the past ride itself out to misery
She still remembers when I kissed her goodnight
It doesn't help, but it doesn't hurt
She can recall professing love by moonlight
And she's tried to stop, but she still knows what it's worth
Through Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, pain
And Thursdays all through Saturdays, rain
On Sunday, there is time to find herself again
She knows she can find herself again
She gets so many things she wants
She covers herself with nothing that she needs
She lies to herself and all of the world
But she still knows the truth, she still keeps her dream
One day when it's over, one day when it's past
And all of these things have fallen away
She'll recover the meaning, she'll be there at last
And I never left sight of her beautiful face
The cruelest pain is I can't set her free
The saddest thing is I can't make her see
The worst feeling is I must let her be
For the most important thing to me is she
Reversal
All tides turn and all dreams change
I used to stay awake throughout the night
Now sleep is my own personal nepenthe
Sleep sleep sleep
Let time flow without me in it for a change
For so long I would tell my friends and everyone
"Sleep is for the dead. There are things to do."
Those things are gone now.
Yes he said it, yes he did,
Robert Flynn spoke words for me:
"Gone is my faded dream; failure, I welcome in thou."
But there is no beautiful mourning.
What was buried has risen like Jesus
Scouring the earth, the walking dead
I pluck the strings and recoil aghast at the beauty of the intonation
The chords stir my soul to reawaken
But all I want to do is sleep.
I found songs inside myself.
I cannot trust nor hope the notes I hear
But those notes are the reason I'm still here.
They're not for me;
They're for you.
I found them in my soul and brought them here
For you.
It doesn't matter if you don't care.
Just like I did long ago, you will have to face these notes.
You will have to face them and decide
If you feel the same you did as before you heard them.
And once the words echo past the notes, oh
You will have to decide again.
And my only hope is that after the tones have long decayed
That you will have changed your mind
And I will live again.
I used to stay awake throughout the night
Now sleep is my own personal nepenthe
Sleep sleep sleep
Let time flow without me in it for a change
For so long I would tell my friends and everyone
"Sleep is for the dead. There are things to do."
Those things are gone now.
Yes he said it, yes he did,
Robert Flynn spoke words for me:
"Gone is my faded dream; failure, I welcome in thou."
But there is no beautiful mourning.
What was buried has risen like Jesus
Scouring the earth, the walking dead
I pluck the strings and recoil aghast at the beauty of the intonation
The chords stir my soul to reawaken
But all I want to do is sleep.
I found songs inside myself.
I cannot trust nor hope the notes I hear
But those notes are the reason I'm still here.
They're not for me;
They're for you.
I found them in my soul and brought them here
For you.
It doesn't matter if you don't care.
Just like I did long ago, you will have to face these notes.
You will have to face them and decide
If you feel the same you did as before you heard them.
And once the words echo past the notes, oh
You will have to decide again.
And my only hope is that after the tones have long decayed
That you will have changed your mind
And I will live again.
I Don't
You asked me what was wrong
I asked you in turn what was right
You stared at the floor as though my question
Cauterized your soul as it shot the moon
You said two words to me
I asked you what they meant
You conjured a fire in your eyes
But your soul could not so much as light a spark
So where do we go from here?
When the skies are grey, is the ocean more clear?
We never even looked down to see
For when the clouds gather we all hurry off from the sea
Just for once, I would wait for you here
On the shores of an ocean in torrential fare
I told myself that my life didn't matter to me
But if it matters to you, then I won't set myself free
I just wish you would admit that you saw my soul
My eyes a crystal blue disguise and they're taking their toll
I didn't know my heart would cave right in
I didn't know my life would lean on yours in the end
Just for once, I would give you my life
I'd spin the clock back in time to tell you that you were right
I didn't know how much I loved you then
But I know now that I will love you until my end
And I don't know when the day is coming
But as my bones drag slowly I feel time is running me down
You're not around
I suppose that's destiny
I can't believe they took the best of me
I would give all my life for you
But knowing you won't give a minute is a blade running through
My spine
No turning time
I wasted all of mine and now I am slowly unwinding
If we're not growing together, we're growing apart
What is left to say? You always owned my heart
I asked you in turn what was right
You stared at the floor as though my question
Cauterized your soul as it shot the moon
You said two words to me
I asked you what they meant
You conjured a fire in your eyes
But your soul could not so much as light a spark
So where do we go from here?
When the skies are grey, is the ocean more clear?
We never even looked down to see
For when the clouds gather we all hurry off from the sea
Just for once, I would wait for you here
On the shores of an ocean in torrential fare
I told myself that my life didn't matter to me
But if it matters to you, then I won't set myself free
I just wish you would admit that you saw my soul
My eyes a crystal blue disguise and they're taking their toll
I didn't know my heart would cave right in
I didn't know my life would lean on yours in the end
Just for once, I would give you my life
I'd spin the clock back in time to tell you that you were right
I didn't know how much I loved you then
But I know now that I will love you until my end
And I don't know when the day is coming
But as my bones drag slowly I feel time is running me down
You're not around
I suppose that's destiny
I can't believe they took the best of me
I would give all my life for you
But knowing you won't give a minute is a blade running through
My spine
No turning time
I wasted all of mine and now I am slowly unwinding
If we're not growing together, we're growing apart
What is left to say? You always owned my heart
In Between
I don't have anything to offer you
Just the normal black and blue
You've taken all that I had ever gained
I've tried and tried just to make it through
To watch myself come unglued
There isn't much inside that still remains
Empty my life to your eyes
Pour my heart onto a screen
Return null and void, wonder why
Love is this darkening scene
I have no voice left to rationalize
The rolling thunder will not hear my cries
And the black clouds will settle on me
I've fought so hard against your lies
There's simply nothing otherwise
And I wish you'd just walk away from me
I have emptied my life to your eyes
I have poured myself onto your screen
My return has been nothing, but why?
Why can't I find love in between?
Life dealt us different hands, this truth I understand
But isn't it more important how you play the game?
I'm not the same old man, I found a different plan
So why can't you try to do the same?
I met you halfway there, you gave me the blankest stare
I never thought I'd see you so naive
I made the sacrifice, you refuse to compromise
Keep telling myself that I can't believe
Well I guess it's time I found some faith
Because you just straight up walked away
I'm not surprised
I'm not alive
Just the normal black and blue
You've taken all that I had ever gained
I've tried and tried just to make it through
To watch myself come unglued
There isn't much inside that still remains
Empty my life to your eyes
Pour my heart onto a screen
Return null and void, wonder why
Love is this darkening scene
I have no voice left to rationalize
The rolling thunder will not hear my cries
And the black clouds will settle on me
I've fought so hard against your lies
There's simply nothing otherwise
And I wish you'd just walk away from me
I have emptied my life to your eyes
I have poured myself onto your screen
My return has been nothing, but why?
Why can't I find love in between?
Life dealt us different hands, this truth I understand
But isn't it more important how you play the game?
I'm not the same old man, I found a different plan
So why can't you try to do the same?
I met you halfway there, you gave me the blankest stare
I never thought I'd see you so naive
I made the sacrifice, you refuse to compromise
Keep telling myself that I can't believe
Well I guess it's time I found some faith
Because you just straight up walked away
I'm not surprised
I'm not alive
I, Mistake
Life has been packed in boxes for the last eight years
Been in the same place for the last three, but still leery
Still aware that anything could change
Why is safety such a lie?
Ship is sturdy, crew is strong and experienced
Why not drop anchor? This place is death.
This place is dead.
Can't focus with obfuscated eyes
Don't feel truth among force-fed lies
See you in periphery
See you close yet so far away
Come back, leave, make a choice, stop repeating
A mistake that you can't seem to break
The mistake points to itself
The mistake is a reflection
The mistake is a shadow as the clock turns midnight
Who feels in the clouds when the feet are attached to sediment?
Mistake begs for your words, yet you remain reticent
This is so self-evident
You have set no precedent
The mistake is just a snowflake. Just a drop from the sky falling on your tongue
You, the lover of snow, you make angels and play
The mistake will linger for time, but soon will collapse into water and lose its novelty
And onto the rest of the snow you will go.
Just a blink in the eye
Just another shadow as the clock turns midnight
This ground is familiar. This ground is death.
This ground is dead.
Been in the same place for the last three, but still leery
Still aware that anything could change
Why is safety such a lie?
Ship is sturdy, crew is strong and experienced
Why not drop anchor? This place is death.
This place is dead.
Can't focus with obfuscated eyes
Don't feel truth among force-fed lies
See you in periphery
See you close yet so far away
Come back, leave, make a choice, stop repeating
A mistake that you can't seem to break
The mistake points to itself
The mistake is a reflection
The mistake is a shadow as the clock turns midnight
Who feels in the clouds when the feet are attached to sediment?
Mistake begs for your words, yet you remain reticent
This is so self-evident
You have set no precedent
The mistake is just a snowflake. Just a drop from the sky falling on your tongue
You, the lover of snow, you make angels and play
The mistake will linger for time, but soon will collapse into water and lose its novelty
And onto the rest of the snow you will go.
Just a blink in the eye
Just another shadow as the clock turns midnight
This ground is familiar. This ground is death.
This ground is dead.
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