Your love was the same as poison
You had me under your microscope
You didn't love without conditions
You kept the foot of your perfect life upon my throat
Death and doom were my choices
We shattered every time silence broke
You thought yourself a religion
I wrapped my hands around your dogma and choked, choked, choked
A year had passed since we wrote our notes
But we should've known it right from the start
Hope could never keep us together
Love can mend life, but you used it to break my heart
So take the message from the bottle
And cast it back to the sea
A hundred million castaways could not
Possibly appeal to me
Your love for me may have existed
But jealousy burned it into ash
The charred remains are so twisted
I could care less to send the S.O.S.
A year had passed since we wrote our notes
But we should've known it right from the start
Hope could never keep us together
Love can mend life, but you used it to break my heart
When I woke up this morning
I couldn't believe what I saw
A hundred million more bottles
And you're damn right I destroyed them all
In peaceful silence I'm smiling
Yes John Donne was wrong
So stay the hell off my island
And to yourself sing this song, yes sing along
A year had passed since we wrote our notes
But we should've known it right from the start
Hope could never keep us together
Love can mend life, but you used it to break my heart
Snuffing out the S.O.S.
- featured lyrics from the song "Message In A Bottle," written by Gordon Sumner for the album Reggatta dé Blanc by The Police, copyright 1979; featured lyrics from the song "Basura," written by Grant Morgan, copyright 2011
Monday, August 20, 2012
Thursday, August 9, 2012
I Know
I always get this feeling
That you're holding something back
I don't know what, I don't know why
But, I know
You can hide it, you can fight it
And you can try to deny it
But the blood is on your hands
And it shows
You wear your heart upon your sleeve
Yet you are upset when you bleed
You should understand by now
Just what it does
Now the trick here you will see
Is that I'm talking about me
Damn, I'm as confused today
As I ever was
But at least I know
At least I know
Spent so long talking to myself
It's so hard to hear someone else
We've got so many conversations
Going on
You can try to come and join us
But you may find us an annoyance
I would offer explanations
But they'd be wrong
My head is upset with my heart
And it's been tearing me apart
I tried to tell my heart some things
But I didn't listen
My heart is on vacation now
If you could leave a note somehow
I'll check it once I get back
But for now, I'm gone fishin'
Then at least I'll know
At least I'll know
I left a rice trail out for you
And made a spot out here for two
Just promise me you won't come back here
With my head
I'm tired of making bad decisions
All because he 'has a vision'
Tell him I said he needs to get
His prescription checked
Then he will know
At least he'll know
Some years have passed, you stood me up
I thought I was out of luck
Then from the rice trail came my head
We talked for once
We were both wrong, we were both right
Both of us didn't want to fight
So we laughed until the setting
Of the sun
We made a promise to each other
He's the thinker, I'm the lover
But we've got to work together
Not alone
It's much easier said than done
And sometimes not a lot of fun
But if you catch me smiling randomly
You'll know
That you're holding something back
I don't know what, I don't know why
But, I know
You can hide it, you can fight it
And you can try to deny it
But the blood is on your hands
And it shows
You wear your heart upon your sleeve
Yet you are upset when you bleed
You should understand by now
Just what it does
Now the trick here you will see
Is that I'm talking about me
Damn, I'm as confused today
As I ever was
But at least I know
At least I know
Spent so long talking to myself
It's so hard to hear someone else
We've got so many conversations
Going on
You can try to come and join us
But you may find us an annoyance
I would offer explanations
But they'd be wrong
My head is upset with my heart
And it's been tearing me apart
I tried to tell my heart some things
But I didn't listen
My heart is on vacation now
If you could leave a note somehow
I'll check it once I get back
But for now, I'm gone fishin'
Then at least I'll know
At least I'll know
I left a rice trail out for you
And made a spot out here for two
Just promise me you won't come back here
With my head
I'm tired of making bad decisions
All because he 'has a vision'
Tell him I said he needs to get
His prescription checked
Then he will know
At least he'll know
Some years have passed, you stood me up
I thought I was out of luck
Then from the rice trail came my head
We talked for once
We were both wrong, we were both right
Both of us didn't want to fight
So we laughed until the setting
Of the sun
We made a promise to each other
He's the thinker, I'm the lover
But we've got to work together
Not alone
It's much easier said than done
And sometimes not a lot of fun
But if you catch me smiling randomly
You'll know
Verboten
The serpent is speaking
But I deny its molest
Slithered and recoiling
The tree rots at the root
In the land of knowledge
Even a fool can be king
It never is what you know
It's how you put it to use
Strike swiftly and bite down
While you have the advantage
Carry yourself like a weapon
The ammunition is truth
Medicine will numb you
But the cure will save you
Rain the cure upon the masses
Let them feel the proof
Let the truth have its stay
Take a bite of the apple
Nothing tastes sweeter
Than forbidden fruit
But I deny its molest
Slithered and recoiling
The tree rots at the root
In the land of knowledge
Even a fool can be king
It never is what you know
It's how you put it to use
Strike swiftly and bite down
While you have the advantage
Carry yourself like a weapon
The ammunition is truth
Medicine will numb you
But the cure will save you
Rain the cure upon the masses
Let them feel the proof
Let the truth have its stay
Take a bite of the apple
Nothing tastes sweeter
Than forbidden fruit
(This Is Not) The Age Of Aquarius
written 8/8/12
This is not the age of Aquarius
This is the age of acquiescence
Because everything is the same as it was
And there is nothing we can do
So release your patience
Just give up and learn to take it
Because if there is a change for the better
You know damn well it won't involve you
State your name please for the record
Be prepared, for this tie is severed
I know nothing lasts forever
But can't I just get one fair shot?
I'm not asking you for fortune
I just wanna get in before the door shuts
Don't you know what it's like to wait outside alone?
Well, me is all I've got
This is not the age of Aquarius
This is the age of hysteria
Because we are so afraid to live
As though we had so much to lose
Fear is the president, chaos is the Congress
We would sell our souls for someone to be honest
But we can't bear the pain of truth
So we just sit and never move
State your name please for the record
Be prepared, for this tie is severed
I know nothing lasts forever
But can't I just get one fair shot?
I'm not asking you for fortune
I just wanna get in before the door shuts
Don't you know what it's like to wait outside alone?
Well, me is all I've got
This is not the age of Aquarius
This is just the age of barriers
The walls inside our hearts are high
And I have yet to see open sky
But I think I have found a way
So I will flee the keep today
I hope to see you standing by
On the other side
This is not the age of Aquarius
This is the age of acquiescence
Because everything is the same as it was
And there is nothing we can do
So release your patience
Just give up and learn to take it
Because if there is a change for the better
You know damn well it won't involve you
State your name please for the record
Be prepared, for this tie is severed
I know nothing lasts forever
But can't I just get one fair shot?
I'm not asking you for fortune
I just wanna get in before the door shuts
Don't you know what it's like to wait outside alone?
Well, me is all I've got
This is not the age of Aquarius
This is the age of hysteria
Because we are so afraid to live
As though we had so much to lose
Fear is the president, chaos is the Congress
We would sell our souls for someone to be honest
But we can't bear the pain of truth
So we just sit and never move
State your name please for the record
Be prepared, for this tie is severed
I know nothing lasts forever
But can't I just get one fair shot?
I'm not asking you for fortune
I just wanna get in before the door shuts
Don't you know what it's like to wait outside alone?
Well, me is all I've got
This is not the age of Aquarius
This is just the age of barriers
The walls inside our hearts are high
And I have yet to see open sky
But I think I have found a way
So I will flee the keep today
I hope to see you standing by
On the other side
Stream Of Consciousness III
written 7/23/12
I don't have chips on my shoulders
They instead became boulders
The world is cold and I have grown colder
I have no clue where I'm supposed to turn
I fight this war like a soldier
A death knell beholder
The world is old but I feel like I'm older
I'm running out of lessons to learn
Can you teach me something I don't know?
Take me somewhere I can't go?
My whole life in chains, I've dreamed of escape
Never before have I come this close
All the promises we made
In the ocean they all fade
Will you help me finish the work that we'd begun
Or turn your back and run?
I don't have chips on my shoulders
They instead became boulders
The world is cold and I have grown colder
I have no clue where I'm supposed to turn
I fight this war like a soldier
A death knell beholder
The world is old but I feel like I'm older
I'm running out of lessons to learn
Can you teach me something I don't know?
Take me somewhere I can't go?
My whole life in chains, I've dreamed of escape
Never before have I come this close
All the promises we made
In the ocean they all fade
Will you help me finish the work that we'd begun
Or turn your back and run?
Stream Of Consciousness II
written 7/13/12
I'm hurting sort of like a growth spurt
Not meant to release in controlled bursts
Like soldiers I was always meant to go first
I spread like a slow burn while you lose composure
I decimated competition before it knew I was there
I reign in blood upon the throne, you could say I'm a slayer
Go hard is my only option, you may not have a prayer
Got you corralled and cornered out like Tiananmen Square
I didn't say it was fair, but you shouldn't try to oppose me
You don't know my strength, hell you barely even know me
I'm not from Missouri but you're still gonna have to show me
You're not just a phony striking a pose
We can't stop the system if the system is us
We can't stop the war if we're supplying the guns
We can't stop the bailouts if we're using the funds
Hey isn't this fun? Ah, screw it, I'm done
I'm hurting sort of like a growth spurt
Not meant to release in controlled bursts
Like soldiers I was always meant to go first
I spread like a slow burn while you lose composure
I decimated competition before it knew I was there
I reign in blood upon the throne, you could say I'm a slayer
Go hard is my only option, you may not have a prayer
Got you corralled and cornered out like Tiananmen Square
I didn't say it was fair, but you shouldn't try to oppose me
You don't know my strength, hell you barely even know me
I'm not from Missouri but you're still gonna have to show me
You're not just a phony striking a pose
We can't stop the system if the system is us
We can't stop the war if we're supplying the guns
We can't stop the bailouts if we're using the funds
Hey isn't this fun? Ah, screw it, I'm done
Laissez Les Bons Temps Rouler
written 7/12/12
You said you wanted a son
And I have always wanted be one
You said you needed my help
I came running without hesitation
You hid something from all of us
And you never once tried to let us in
You've been dying the slowest death
And you still have yet to make amends
We sacrificed and uprooted all our lives
What a shame to know it was just to watch you die
So let the good times
Roll you to your shallow grave
I can't take back the time I gave away
So here's a toast to your decay - let the good times
Roll you to the afterlife
How shall I console the lives you flushed away
I can't believe it ends this way - let the good times roll
You should've told us you hated life
We wouldn't have bothered selling ours
You should've warned us you wanted out
Instead of wasting years, it could've been hours
You should've told us you never cared
I wouldn't want your sweet to turn to sour
I wish we'd left you on your own
Just like you're doing to us, you fucking coward
We sacrificed and uprooted all our lives
What a shame to know it was just to watch you die
So let the good times
Roll you to your shallow grave
I can't take back the time I gave away
So here's a toast to your decay - let the good times
Roll you to the afterlife
How shall I console the lives you flushed away
I can't believe it ends this way - let the good times roll
Votre vie égoïste
Mon cœur brisé
Qu'est-ce que je donnerais
Pour un nouveau départ
Non pardonne - laissez les bons temps rouler
Non pardonne - laissez les bons temps rouler
Non pardonne - laissez les bons temps rouler
Non pardonne
So let the good times
Roll you to your shallow grave
I can't take back the time I gave away
So here's a toast to your decay - let the good times
Roll you to the afterlife
How shall I console the lives you flushed away
I can't believe it ends this way - let the good times roll
You said you wanted a son
And I have always wanted be one
You said you needed my help
I came running without hesitation
You hid something from all of us
And you never once tried to let us in
You've been dying the slowest death
And you still have yet to make amends
We sacrificed and uprooted all our lives
What a shame to know it was just to watch you die
So let the good times
Roll you to your shallow grave
I can't take back the time I gave away
So here's a toast to your decay - let the good times
Roll you to the afterlife
How shall I console the lives you flushed away
I can't believe it ends this way - let the good times roll
You should've told us you hated life
We wouldn't have bothered selling ours
You should've warned us you wanted out
Instead of wasting years, it could've been hours
You should've told us you never cared
I wouldn't want your sweet to turn to sour
I wish we'd left you on your own
Just like you're doing to us, you fucking coward
We sacrificed and uprooted all our lives
What a shame to know it was just to watch you die
So let the good times
Roll you to your shallow grave
I can't take back the time I gave away
So here's a toast to your decay - let the good times
Roll you to the afterlife
How shall I console the lives you flushed away
I can't believe it ends this way - let the good times roll
Votre vie égoïste
Mon cœur brisé
Qu'est-ce que je donnerais
Pour un nouveau départ
Non pardonne - laissez les bons temps rouler
Non pardonne - laissez les bons temps rouler
Non pardonne - laissez les bons temps rouler
Non pardonne
So let the good times
Roll you to your shallow grave
I can't take back the time I gave away
So here's a toast to your decay - let the good times
Roll you to the afterlife
How shall I console the lives you flushed away
I can't believe it ends this way - let the good times roll
Stream Of Consciousness I
written 7/8/12
There is a time at which the journey begins
I've broken ground upon my heart and now it's time to dig in
With picks and spades under no shade I feel the heat and the wind
I've played the part of my charade out and I'm empty within
Everybody get your knives out, it's time to take a stab
At what I'm gonna be next and how much I'm gonna have
To take from all of the directions you can find on the map
You get grins thinking I'm lost but I'mma have the last laugh
So come at me if you'd like because I've got nothing but time
I've climbed the steps to find myself and hide within these lines
You've been breathing me into existence giving life to rhymes
Cause every single song you sing makes you all the more mine
I am the oxygen that fills your lungs and makes your breath clean
I am the valve that pumps inside you, yeah I move your bloodstream
You can find myself inside you every time you're lonely
I am you and you are me, and we're one hell of a team
High five
There is a time at which the journey begins
I've broken ground upon my heart and now it's time to dig in
With picks and spades under no shade I feel the heat and the wind
I've played the part of my charade out and I'm empty within
Everybody get your knives out, it's time to take a stab
At what I'm gonna be next and how much I'm gonna have
To take from all of the directions you can find on the map
You get grins thinking I'm lost but I'mma have the last laugh
So come at me if you'd like because I've got nothing but time
I've climbed the steps to find myself and hide within these lines
You've been breathing me into existence giving life to rhymes
Cause every single song you sing makes you all the more mine
I am the oxygen that fills your lungs and makes your breath clean
I am the valve that pumps inside you, yeah I move your bloodstream
You can find myself inside you every time you're lonely
I am you and you are me, and we're one hell of a team
High five
Proverbs 32
written 6/20/12
We are, each and every one of us, plagiarists
Parasitic pantheons of pathetically pacified pastiche
Paradoxical parodies of pain
Lovely for certain, but not very original
Or are we the most original?
Or is there no origin?
You can assume to know the reasons
I can't help but think all of us are playing
An eternal guessing game
A neverending gamble
So if you live your life with a heart of joy and the wrong answer
Or a heart of sorrow and the unyielding truth
What is the difference when you are six feet below?
You can search for answers all you want
I just want inspiration
You can have your idols and your traditions and your prayers
I just want to be original
But that is the paradox isn't it?
You even wrote it in your book
'There is nothing new under the sun'
But that didn't stop you from having a harem, did it?
The wisdom of Solomon: to sleep around and have a big palace
So many aspire by your words
Yet you were ensnared by vagina and smoke
I laugh and think of how many have been just like you
Me included
Maybe you are right about there being nothing new
But, screw you anyway for your pretense
Just as fallible as the rest of us
Follow your own Proverbs before making me believe I should
The tangent is through
Is that original enough?
We are, each and every one of us, plagiarists
Parasitic pantheons of pathetically pacified pastiche
Paradoxical parodies of pain
Lovely for certain, but not very original
Or are we the most original?
Or is there no origin?
You can assume to know the reasons
I can't help but think all of us are playing
An eternal guessing game
A neverending gamble
So if you live your life with a heart of joy and the wrong answer
Or a heart of sorrow and the unyielding truth
What is the difference when you are six feet below?
You can search for answers all you want
I just want inspiration
You can have your idols and your traditions and your prayers
I just want to be original
But that is the paradox isn't it?
You even wrote it in your book
'There is nothing new under the sun'
But that didn't stop you from having a harem, did it?
The wisdom of Solomon: to sleep around and have a big palace
So many aspire by your words
Yet you were ensnared by vagina and smoke
I laugh and think of how many have been just like you
Me included
Maybe you are right about there being nothing new
But, screw you anyway for your pretense
Just as fallible as the rest of us
Follow your own Proverbs before making me believe I should
The tangent is through
Is that original enough?
Recoil
written 6/10/12
I know you wanna have the last word
I know that nothing matters more
My voice will be forever unheard
And you will have the winning score
So go ahead and sling your arrows
What's one more injury to make?
My chances of survival narrow
But my spirit you will not break
You've been kicking me for so long now
I've analyzed all your attacks
I may be breathless on this cold ground
But just you wait till I strike back
I will reclaim myself again soon
Yes I will fight and I will win
You cannot keep me under your boot
I always find the strength within
I know you wanna have the last word
I know that nothing matters more
My voice will be forever unheard
And you will have the winning score
So go ahead and sling your arrows
What's one more injury to make?
My chances of survival narrow
But my spirit you will not break
You've been kicking me for so long now
I've analyzed all your attacks
I may be breathless on this cold ground
But just you wait till I strike back
I will reclaim myself again soon
Yes I will fight and I will win
You cannot keep me under your boot
I always find the strength within
Snare
written 6/8/12
The tension is thick
You could cut it with a knife
Emotion stirs action
Action stirs words
Words stir feelings
Feelings writhe to be conquered
Yet to conquer as well
Not a moment is spared as hands grasp skin
Clutching, teasing, prodding, rubbing
Nothing is sacred, everything is worshipped
Mouths cup around each other
Delving towards midsections
Engulfing like sacrament
Barely stopping to breathe
Till the levee breaks
Saddling one another, firmly grasped
Bent like reeds in the wind
Entangled in complex postures
Wrought to the imminent fate
Of breaking the levees once more
When our skin is flooded with each other
When we can no longer feel or breathe
Then we may rest
Nestled into one another
Until our time comes again
The tension is thick
You could cut it with a knife
Emotion stirs action
Action stirs words
Words stir feelings
Feelings writhe to be conquered
Yet to conquer as well
Not a moment is spared as hands grasp skin
Clutching, teasing, prodding, rubbing
Nothing is sacred, everything is worshipped
Mouths cup around each other
Delving towards midsections
Engulfing like sacrament
Barely stopping to breathe
Till the levee breaks
Saddling one another, firmly grasped
Bent like reeds in the wind
Entangled in complex postures
Wrought to the imminent fate
Of breaking the levees once more
When our skin is flooded with each other
When we can no longer feel or breathe
Then we may rest
Nestled into one another
Until our time comes again
Puzzle
written 6/12/12
If life is a jigsaw puzzle
Then time must be the hands assembling it
The puzzles are always massive
Even when two pieces can snap together
It doesn't mean they were meant to
Every time the puzzle is assembled
It looks different than before
Sometimes the puzzle stays in a work zone
Neatly kept and constantly chipped away at
The hands of time change identity, though
New sets of hands tackle the puzzle against the original hands' wishes
Sometimes in secret
Sometimes the new hands with new perspectives look promising
They help the puzzle become complete
But in the end, like the original hands, they turn away and let life be
Life gets put away in bags, or back in its original box
Some lives get thrown away
Some lives have their tiny, completed portions glued together
Forever awaiting completion
Forever incomplete
Guess it turns out that, even if it is wrong
Even if all the pieces don't match
Even if the pattern looks wrong and the colors and 'scapes aren't where they were supposed to be according to our picture reference
The only life that ever gets completed
Is the life we never give up on until the pieces are all in place
If life is a jigsaw puzzle
Then time must be the hands assembling it
The puzzles are always massive
Even when two pieces can snap together
It doesn't mean they were meant to
Every time the puzzle is assembled
It looks different than before
Sometimes the puzzle stays in a work zone
Neatly kept and constantly chipped away at
The hands of time change identity, though
New sets of hands tackle the puzzle against the original hands' wishes
Sometimes in secret
Sometimes the new hands with new perspectives look promising
They help the puzzle become complete
But in the end, like the original hands, they turn away and let life be
Life gets put away in bags, or back in its original box
Some lives get thrown away
Some lives have their tiny, completed portions glued together
Forever awaiting completion
Forever incomplete
Guess it turns out that, even if it is wrong
Even if all the pieces don't match
Even if the pattern looks wrong and the colors and 'scapes aren't where they were supposed to be according to our picture reference
The only life that ever gets completed
Is the life we never give up on until the pieces are all in place
Fear The Reaper
written 6/5/12
I've got a dual wield mentality
The best defense is a good offense
I don't believe in security
Strike you down without pretense
I don't wanna know your name
You're at the wrong place at the wrong time
I swear we are not the same
And when you bleed, I will not cry
Save your tears for someone else's shoulder
My heart is harder than steel and so am I
Sentimentality escapes me as I grow older
So get that look of shock off of your eyes
I've made enough death to haunt me
And oh I've laid so many to rest
The ghosts who wander taunt me
But they don't know who they're messing with
I don't know any of their names
Just a bad situation at a bad time
And I still feel the exact same
As the day my blades kissed them goodbye
Save your tears for someone else's shoulder
My heart is harder than steel and so am I
Sentimentality escapes me as I grow older
So get that look of shock off of your eyes
Grim is my first name
Reaper is my last
You come to me to plead for life
But life doesn't last
So beg for something better
Beg for something sweet
Doesn't matter, 'cause in the end
I will see you bleed, so
Save your tears for someone else's shoulder
My heart is harder than steel and so am I
Sentimentality escapes me as I grow older
So get that look of shock off of your eyes
I've got a dual wield mentality
The best defense is a good offense
I don't believe in security
Strike you down without pretense
I don't wanna know your name
You're at the wrong place at the wrong time
I swear we are not the same
And when you bleed, I will not cry
Save your tears for someone else's shoulder
My heart is harder than steel and so am I
Sentimentality escapes me as I grow older
So get that look of shock off of your eyes
I've made enough death to haunt me
And oh I've laid so many to rest
The ghosts who wander taunt me
But they don't know who they're messing with
I don't know any of their names
Just a bad situation at a bad time
And I still feel the exact same
As the day my blades kissed them goodbye
Save your tears for someone else's shoulder
My heart is harder than steel and so am I
Sentimentality escapes me as I grow older
So get that look of shock off of your eyes
Grim is my first name
Reaper is my last
You come to me to plead for life
But life doesn't last
So beg for something better
Beg for something sweet
Doesn't matter, 'cause in the end
I will see you bleed, so
Save your tears for someone else's shoulder
My heart is harder than steel and so am I
Sentimentality escapes me as I grow older
So get that look of shock off of your eyes
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