Nothing

There are times in our lives when we fall for people who we love, but eventually refuse to love us in return. Sometimes people act a certain way in the beginning of a relationship and then change altogether not long down the road to the way they originally were before you entered their lives. In that process sometimes we become altered. The lesson we must take with us is that if we are to be altered, we must be altered for the better. In this instance, I was not. It took a year and a half plus for me to get my mind right from this relationship and it will take more time to heal from it.


My head is cramped with overwhelming thoughts
Pressure running through my system
It wouldn't be so bad if you would just
Open up your mind and listen

Come to find out
Everything's lost
Maze in my mind
No way out this time

All I want is something more than

Nothing, nothing, nothing
All I want is something more than
Nothing, nothing, nothing
All I want is someting more

I do not have the luxury of an escape
I've got no other place to turn
So I will set a spark inside myself and know
That one day I will brightly burn

Done for myself
Needed no help
Rising inside
No way out this time

All I want is something more than

Nothing, nothing, nothing
All I want is someting more than
Nothing, nothing, nothing
All I want is something more

You can't deny your hand in all this wrong
Though you refuse to admit
In so many ways you led me down here
And you abandoned me in it

Your pills will not save you
The truth won't unchain you
Your lies won't contain you
Your drama won't sustain you
I could never change you
I could never tame you
I'm done playing games too
I will forever blame you

Aries

The lords of war unchain our hearts whenever given the foothold. We must not let them break us or tarry us on our narrow roads to home.

You love my soul
Then break it within the same sentence
You make me whole
Then cast me down for repentance

You bid for peace
Then arm yourself for Armageddon
You crave release
Then chain yourself to the forbidden

War is in your bloodstream
So fighting me is second nature
Taunting the world so it seems
No one can explain your behavior
You bring the best of the worst out in me
You want to test and curse all of me
You claim you love and wouldn't hurt one like me
You're a lie, but I always believe you

You love my soul
Then break it within the same sentence
You make me whole
Then cast me down for repentance

You bid for peace
Then arm yourself for Armageddon
You crave release
Then chain yourself to the forbidden

Boiling the blood in my veins
Slicing me open and salting the wounds
I'm choked on the ground as you take reign
You kiss me and say "It will be over soon"
You take my heart as you manipulate
You make the rules only you stipulate
You claim you love when your actions are hate
It's a lie, but I always believe it

You love my soul
Then break it within the same sentence
You make me whole
Then cast me down for repentance

You bid for peace
Then arm yourself for Armageddon
You crave release
Then chain yourself to the forbidden

This fight will never end
I love my enemy so dearly
I call you closest friends
I'd even say you are my family
Why do you render my life asunder?
Why do I need to feel your pain?
Why can't you just live complete I wonder?
Why can't a peaceful existence remain?

Sagittarius

The archers arrows pierce the hearts of even the smallest deadliest scorpions. On Earth I was denied a father; however, that left more room for the heavens to oversee my upbringing. No longer Earthbound, yet still filled with regret, I muse over the pain in hopes that one may understand it and that I may exorcise it.

Faceless, I've let this eat inside of me for
Ages, I can't believe that I would even
Save this hatred for you

You created a life, a Sagittarius, but you
Hated your life, and so you buried us in the
Weight of the world, and then you just dismissed us all away
Like a bad memory

But we're still here
We strive on, we thrive on
Don't need you to fulfill our destiny
So let us be

I don't care, even with how you abused us
I was there every single time you used us
I still bear too many scars in my soul from you

You created a life, a Sagittarius, but you
Gave up that life for lies and tainted love and the
Weight of it all cascades down our faces to this day
Like a bad memory

But we're still here
We strive on, we thrive on
Don't need you to live our lives complete
So just fade away

Her pain will never go away even
Though she has removed your name I wish
Her pain were your chains, 'cause
All your blood money, it never changed a thing

I live my life with virtue and honor
I bleed for mine and for that I am stronger
But every day just becomes that much harder
When I realize that I HAVE NO FATHER

We watched you lie to our face and we
Felt like such a disgrace until
Now, our lives finally turned their own page

You created a life, a Sagittarius, but her
Beauty resides, her arrows pierce the hearts of the
Fiercest in life, and one day her arrow will catch you

One day her arrow will catch you

Libra

The only inanimate sign - and such is love.

Listen to the sounds around you, can't you hear the wind that's blowing over us?
Look around with eyes unclouded, don't you see the leaves are falling next to us?
I have missed you many lifetimes over, now I see you standing by my side
I have lost so much within me, there is not a measure for the tears I've cried

And I would deny the world tonight
As you balance me, I am justified
I will align myself to you in the eyes of the sun
And we can set free the ties that bind
And I'll take your hand and you'll take mine
Together we two will become one

I look into your sapphire eyes, can't you see the pain you've washed away in me?
Running up this mountain high, don't you see that together we are finally free?
You have waited for so long to see my face, to feel my touch, to free your heart
You will wait no longer for this, I will die before this life keeps us apart

And I would deny the world tonight
As you balance me, I am justified
I will align myself to you in the eyes of the sun
And we can set free the ties that bind
And I'll take your hand and you'll take mine
Together we two will become one

And I will deny the world tonight
You balanced me out, and I'm alright
So I will align myself to you in the eyes of the sun
We'll both set free the ties that bind
And we'll take each others hands entwined
Together we two will become one

Done

The way things are never matches the way they should be. As our leaders herd us into the pits of despair and watch our oceans, our sands, our homes and our pockets run red, it seems we would be derelict to not put our attention to the top. It seems we would be loathe not to take action. Dissent, as Thomas Jefferson said, is the highest form of patriotism. We must stand as one against not only evil, but apathy and escapism. We must stand.

I'm done with the economy, done with Obama
Done with McCain, done with the drama
Done with programs you want me to watch
Done with the hands on the doomsday clock
Done with the threats, done with disputes
Done with the lies, done with the truth
Done with the stimulus I'll never receive
Done being told who I oughta believe

I've been lying to myself, and so have you
Black clouds fill our oceans, looks like we're through

We rise, we fall, we fight, we run
We die, we live, we start, and we're done

I am done with the church, done with the state
Done with the murders and done with the rape
Done with the scum who keep giving birth
Just to put our generation six feet in the dirt
Done with the gods, done with the devils
Done with the games and all the next levels
Done with the battles that I thought I'd won
Done trying to tell you how much I am done

I've been lying to myself, and so have you
Black hearts reign in office, looks like we're through

We rise, we fall, we fight, we run
We die, we live, we start, and we're done

I'm done

Gemini

An ageless enemy. A terrible choice. A person torn between two sides of themselves: the one angered, abusive, lying, compulsive and cheating; and the one loving, compassionate, yet still blackened by misconception. I made the choice to try to save this person, not knowing that this person was two people. When the weight fell on me, I was crushed and had to rise again. This is the story of my arising from true pain.

Oh

Gemini, you and I
We are close like polar opposites
Gemini, you and I
We are atom bombs on the Titanic
Gemini, you and I
We are gelling just like oil and water
Gemini, you and I
Looks like we're both prisoners in our private hell

I love this war
But I can't remember what I'm fighting for, so

I'll do anything I can
To get underneath your skin
'Cause I know you'd do the same for me
As I decimate your heart
I will tear your soul apart
You've already done the same to me

Gemini, you and I
We are blowing up like Mount Saint Helens
Gemini, you and I
We are meteors in the Yucatan
Gemini, you and I
We are frozen like the arctic tundra
Gemini, you and I
Seems we're getting along as well as they can tell

I love this war
I can't remember what we're fighting for, but

I'll do anything I can
To get underneath your skin
'Cause I know you'd do the same for me
As I decimate your heart
I will tear your soul apart
You've already done the same to me

You never cared for me
You were not there for me
You're such a travesty
Go - now - live - your - life - your - own - way
Don't - you - dare - come - back

Rainbows & Sunshine

The music business is a business centered squarely on all the deadliest sins. Taking the easy way in is letting go of your conscience and who you are as a person; emptying your cup inside so that they may mold you in your image and replace your heart with a battery. I will not be the Mouth of Sauron. No... I will kill the status quo.

Everybody wants to hear a pretty song
Sung for all the perfect pretty people
"Sell the millions for the millionaires
Don't you know this is a numbers game?"
Everybody's gotta wanna sing along
Play it back again, just drop the needle
For all your visions nobody will care
'Cause to them it all just sounds the same

But I will
Yes I will

Kill the status quo
And condemn the things I already know
Every single day is another lesson learned
Snuff your point of view
I'll give it all I've got till my life is through
And if I fail, I will fail on my own terms

Everybody wants to see a pretty face
Singing for the perfect pretty people
"Cut your hair and get a tan, boy
You should've already lost that weight"
Everybody's gonna take a look at me
A perfect body will be what they want to see
Nobody cares who wrote their favorite song
Just so long as they are looking great

But I will
Yes I will

Kill the status quo
And condemn the things I already know
Every single day is another lesson learned
Snuff your point of view
I'll give it all I've got till my life is through
And if I fail, I will fail on my own terms

This life ain't rainbows and sunshine
I'm not going away till I get mine
I don't care if you like it or not
Time never takes anyone's side
It only exists within our minds
So I'll make the best of what I've got

I will
I will

Kill the status quo
And condemn the things I already know
Every single day is another lesson learned
Snuff your point of view
I'll give it all I've got till my life is through
And if I fail, I will fail on my own terms

My
Own
Terms