Para Bellum

What if I told you
I'm always at war with myself?
What if I said
I won't give up, I'll never lose
What if I tried and tried
But failed almost every time?
Do you even know
Which one of me you're talking to?

Stand beside me
Don't deny me
It's impossible to settle this score
Fighting myself
By myself
If you want peace, prepare for war

What did you tell me
The day you left me for dead?
What did you leave me?
Tortured memories in my head
I cannot believe my eyes
What a wasted sacrifice
What did you expect?
When you cut me open, I bled

Stand beside me
Don't deny me
It's impossible to settle this score
Fighting myself
By myself
If you want peace, prepare for war

I cannot erase you
I cannot replace you
I'm doing the best I can
Down on the frontline
Toes curl on the landmines
But I dare not give in to you

Stand beside me
Don't deny me
It's impossible to settle this score
Fighting myself
By myself
If you want peace, prepare for war