Days

She speaks to me in riddles every single morning
It helps her think that she is "staying on her toes"
She wears her makeup thick upon her face
It helps her cover all her woes
She never cared too much 'bout anything
It helps her make it through her day
She picks herself up later every night
When all the facades fade away

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, pain
Thursday, Friday, Saturday, rain
Sunday, time to find herself again
If she can

She cries herself to sleep after every conversation
It helps the guilt coerce itself to memory
She leaves the world behind at every inconvenience
It helps the past ride itself out to misery
She still remembers when I kissed her goodnight
It doesn't help, but it doesn't hurt
She can recall professing love by moonlight
And she's tried to stop, but she still knows what it's worth

Through Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, pain
And Thursdays all through Saturdays, rain
On Sunday, there is time to find herself again
She knows she can find herself again

She gets so many things she wants
She covers herself with nothing that she needs
She lies to herself and all of the world
But she still knows the truth, she still keeps her dream

One day when it's over, one day when it's past
And all of these things have fallen away
She'll recover the meaning, she'll be there at last
And I never left sight of her beautiful face

The cruelest pain is I can't set her free
The saddest thing is I can't make her see
The worst feeling is I must let her be
For the most important thing to me is she

Reversal

All tides turn and all dreams change
I used to stay awake throughout the night
Now sleep is my own personal nepenthe
Sleep sleep sleep
Let time flow without me in it for a change
For so long I would tell my friends and everyone
"Sleep is for the dead. There are things to do."
Those things are gone now.
Yes he said it, yes he did,
Robert Flynn spoke words for me:
"Gone is my faded dream; failure, I welcome in thou."
But there is no beautiful mourning.
What was buried has risen like Jesus
Scouring the earth, the walking dead
I pluck the strings and recoil aghast at the beauty of the intonation
The chords stir my soul to reawaken
But all I want to do is sleep.
I found songs inside myself.
I cannot trust nor hope the notes I hear
But those notes are the reason I'm still here.
They're not for me;
They're for you.
I found them in my soul and brought them here
For you.
It doesn't matter if you don't care.
Just like I did long ago, you will have to face these notes.
You will have to face them and decide
If you feel the same you did as before you heard them.
And once the words echo past the notes, oh
You will have to decide again.
And my only hope is that after the tones have long decayed
That you will have changed your mind
And I will live again.

I Don't

You asked me what was wrong
I asked you in turn what was right
You stared at the floor as though my question
Cauterized your soul as it shot the moon
You said two words to me
I asked you what they meant
You conjured a fire in your eyes
But your soul could not so much as light a spark
So where do we go from here?
When the skies are grey, is the ocean more clear?
We never even looked down to see
For when the clouds gather we all hurry off from the sea
Just for once, I would wait for you here
On the shores of an ocean in torrential fare
I told myself that my life didn't matter to me
But if it matters to you, then I won't set myself free
I just wish you would admit that you saw my soul
My eyes a crystal blue disguise and they're taking their toll
I didn't know my heart would cave right in
I didn't know my life would lean on yours in the end
Just for once, I would give you my life
I'd spin the clock back in time to tell you that you were right
I didn't know how much I loved you then
But I know now that I will love you until my end
And I don't know when the day is coming
But as my bones drag slowly I feel time is running me down
You're not around
I suppose that's destiny
I can't believe they took the best of me
I would give all my life for you
But knowing you won't give a minute is a blade running through
My spine
No turning time
I wasted all of mine and now I am slowly unwinding
If we're not growing together, we're growing apart
What is left to say? You always owned my heart

In Between

I don't have anything to offer you
Just the normal black and blue
You've taken all that I had ever gained
I've tried and tried just to make it through
To watch myself come unglued
There isn't much inside that still remains
Empty my life to your eyes
Pour my heart onto a screen
Return null and void, wonder why
Love is this darkening scene
I have no voice left to rationalize
The rolling thunder will not hear my cries
And the black clouds will settle on me
I've fought so hard against your lies
There's simply nothing otherwise
And I wish you'd just walk away from me
I have emptied my life to your eyes
I have poured myself onto your screen
My return has been nothing, but why?
Why can't I find love in between?
Life dealt us different hands, this truth I understand
But isn't it more important how you play the game?
I'm not the same old man, I found a different plan
So why can't you try to do the same?
I met you halfway there, you gave me the blankest stare
I never thought I'd see you so naive
I made the sacrifice, you refuse to compromise
Keep telling myself that I can't believe
Well I guess it's time I found some faith
Because you just straight up walked away
I'm not surprised
I'm not alive

I, Mistake

Life has been packed in boxes for the last eight years
Been in the same place for the last three, but still leery
Still aware that anything could change
Why is safety such a lie?
Ship is sturdy, crew is strong and experienced
Why not drop anchor? This place is death.
This place is dead.
Can't focus with obfuscated eyes
Don't feel truth among force-fed lies
See you in periphery
See you close yet so far away
Come back, leave, make a choice, stop repeating
A mistake that you can't seem to break
The mistake points to itself
The mistake is a reflection
The mistake is a shadow as the clock turns midnight
Who feels in the clouds when the feet are attached to sediment?
Mistake begs for your words, yet you remain reticent
This is so self-evident
You have set no precedent
The mistake is just a snowflake. Just a drop from the sky falling on your tongue
You, the lover of snow, you make angels and play
The mistake will linger for time, but soon will collapse into water and lose its novelty
And onto the rest of the snow you will go.
Just a blink in the eye
Just another shadow as the clock turns midnight
This ground is familiar. This ground is death.
This ground is dead.

Get Lost

I just stamped my ticket to the Hindenburg, baby
I'm ready to go down in flames
I just jumped off the plane without a parachute, so
Well I guess I've gone insane

Or maybe I realize that there is no such thing as solid ground
Maybe I realize that I must get lost if I wanna get found

Ten years down and I've turned it all around
Since the day I found my way
Ten years down and still making sounds
I will always defy your hate

Or maybe I realize that there is no such thing as solid ground
Maybe I realize that I must get lost if I wanna get found

Enter the wilderness, no turning back
If I break all my bones I will shove them back
Into place, I must win this race
Get out of my face, I'm done with this place

I said I'm done with this place
Now who's coming with me?

Said that I realize there is no such thing as solid ground
And I realize that we must get lost if we wanna get found

Leo

We all meet people in our lives sometimes who, at first, allure us and want us. Some of these people are only in our lives to devour what they need from us and toss us like ragged carcass into their lair as trophies. What if we didn't give these hunters their satisfactions? What if they were the king of nothing? We should never let anyone use us in this way. We are more than this.


You're the king of the jungle, a hunter
Borne rich in pride
You're so full of yourself, it's no wonder you
Can't be satisfied
Bold and irrestibly fierce you
Stalk upon your prey
All your subjects lay down for you
There is no escape
Much too haughty to be caught without some
Prize possession in tow
Feeding off of the spoils for a lifetime
All on your own
You're the cream of the crop, me, I'm only
Another fish in the sea
You're sitting high on the top, but oh how lonely
The summit seems to be

Yeah you're the king
The king of a hollowed bastion
The king who will never take action
God it's so easy when nobody's coming to challenge thy crown
You're the king, pretty baby
The king of a kingdom that's empty
The lord of a world that's descending down and stalling out
Don't you wish somebody'd save you now?

Food's becoming much more scarce now
The pride is moving away
Because this field is all you know
You will elect to stay
But all the animals know your tricks now
Tired of beng your prey
They knew you'd one day wear down
And that day is today
The jungle seems so much more empty
The fields are tattered and torn
Roaring up at the sky you're cursing
The day you were born
Unwilling to compromise you'll
Choose to stay where you are
You will die with an empty stomach
And a broken heart

Yeah you're the king
The king of a hollowed bastion
The king who will never take action
God it's so easy when nobody's coming to challenge thy crown
You're the king, pretty baby
The king of a kingdom that's empty
The lord of a world that's descending down and stalling out
Don't you wish somebody'd save you now?